My ideas aren’t new. None of them. Robots, romance, vampires, ghosts, murderers, and thieves. I know the stories I write already exist out there, but I miss writing them. I miss those lives that are not mine, those characters with a life of their own. Heck, I would happily write fanfictions at this point (and I am unashamed to say I already started). Other worlds are clouding my mind, begging to be born outside of it.
I miss writing what isn’t me. And, despite all the technical knowledge I learned in the past years, I don’t know how to write what I have in mind. I don’t know how to write long stories, those that last for many chapters before they are done. I lack patience. I lack willpower. I always find myself disinterested if a story takes too long to be written. Yet, despite flaws, lack of originality and discipline to reach an ending that makes sense, I miss looking forward to another chapter to write.
Writing calls me more than sharing. The kind of writing that requires time, solitude and quiet thinking. My blog posts might take longer to appear here than before. Maybe. Possibly. I don’t know. I might be writing this now only to suddenly feel the urge to post here in the next few days, I don’t know when the sharing muse shows up, she just does and I follow her will. All I know for sure is I want to write books, and novels want me back.
I guess it’s part of my process, going from poetry to memoir to short stories to poetry and memoir again and back to novels. If it’s only a matter of changing what I write about, it’s easier than I thought. I just have to follow what my soul tells me to do. Writing is writing. I’m happy I can play with so many different aspects of it. And lucky for my anonymity. I now fully understand what Austin Kleon meant in his book «Steal like an artist», where he wrote about the great opportunity of being anonymous. There is a sweet freedom in being able to play and learn before joining the big game.
I’m going to write stories now and I’m going to enjoy it like a kid in a ball pit. Wish me luck!